~hard lesson~

It's a hard lesson, when you learn it too late
It's a cold feeling, just like a slap in the face

I knew you were waiting
I knew you wanted to see
I know you were wanting
I know you were needing me.

I should have hung around
I should have hung around
I could've moved some things
We could've chased some dreams
Its sad to reminece
And wonder what all I've missed
I should have hung around.

I didn't want call, I didn't wanna pretend
I didn't want to talk, after all the frustration had set in.
I didn't want to know, what you did again.

But now, what if it was what you needed
What if it was me
What if I could have changed it
Could we have escaped the tragedy.

And I don't want to think about that moment
I don't want know in grand detail
I remember you strong and vibrant
I don't want to think of you weak and frail.

I should have hung around
I should have hung around
I could've moved some things
We could've chased some dreams
Its sad to remanece
And wonder what all I've missed
I should have hung around.

Now I wish I could go back and appreciated you
I wish I knew then, what I'm feeling now
I wish I was there on all those birthdays
I could have seen that silly smile

My heart so wants to be close to you
More than it ever did back then
Its a hard lesson when you learn it too late
I missed the chance to make you my very close friend.

I'm sorry I let you down
Even if you didnt know it
I know what I should've done
I know that I should've have shown it.

I know you knew I loved you
That never was the question
I know you knew I cared for you
But I made a bad decision.

I wasn't really mad
I just allowed myself to be
I could've changed my mind
But you leaving, I just couldn't see

I took your presence for granted
Knowing you were just a phone call away to say hi.
I never thought in a million years
That I would be saying my tearful goodbyes.

Its a hard lesson, when you learn it too late
I missed my chance, to truly show you how I thought you were so great.
I could've have done more
and now my heart feels so sore.

// by Mellissa